Kepada semua kawan2 & bukan kawan2...
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klik di atas utk melawati blog baru ni...
Blog ni akan tetap ada tapi tidak akan diupdate...
Jangan lupa pi sana ok....enjoy...
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Loving the moments...
Kali terakhir En Zul datang ke Terengganu utk tolong aku bawa balik barang2...fiuhhh...punya la banyak...sampai hari ni xhabis mengemas lagi...
Anyway, we had breakfast at my fav cafe...
Kami pergi bertiga...with my sister, dia la yg amik gambar ni...
Ha...ni dekat Taman Tamadun Islam...gatal sangat nak naik beskal...abis lenguh2 kaki kami, almaklumlah...lame xnaik beskal kan....
Best2 sangat....
Di monumen Masjid Al-Aqsa...nampak mcm real kan? monumen ni ada bahagian dalam yg boleh masuk, tapi xbleh amik gambar...
Nak tgk gambar lebih2...bleh pi Facebook gue...
Eheh...romantik skali...as uol bleh teka...belakang ittiew Taj Mahal....
Sempat main nyorok2 kat monumen2 kat situ...
Disyorkan kepada semua rakyat Malaysia untuk ke sana..ye lah...menyokong usaha kerajaan untuk Cuti-cuti Malaysia...korang akan kagum dengan kecantikan dan kehalusan seni membina monumen2 ini...
Friday, October 30, 2009
hmmm..life goes on...
Mesti ramai yg tgh gian nk meng"komen"kan? hmm...tambahan plak peminat setia blog ni yg suka komen hari2....ahaks...
Menggunakan kuasa yg ada....
Dengan kuasa dan hak yg ada pd sy...dengan ini sy akan save comment2 defensive tertulis kat cni dan sekaligus delete...debate dah bertukar kepada tidak profesional ni malas nk layan...
Lagipon ni blog aku ye x...suka hati aku la nk private ke x....
Kurang2 bleh aku tunjuk contoh kat setengah org tu yg xtau nk delete komen...pastu salahkan org pengunjung blog dia mai cni...
Bak kata org
Lu mai cni wa xajak
Lu bukan sedara wa
Lu mai cni sukarela
10rg je aku ajak pon...yg lain idung xmancung pipi tersorong2....
(berduyun plak nak komen)
Wa xsuruh lu tekan mai cni
Wa x acu pistol pon lu mai cni
entry aku sblom ni telah mendapat sambutan, walaupun x dikomen pada entry tersebut
ye la brape kali nak termalu diri sendiri ye x....
adoi..aku xnak la publisiti murahan camni...
dengan kuasa yg ada pada aku....
jgn terasa ye...karang sentap pulak....
ye la masing2 rasa betul, walaupun xde ape yg nak disalahkan...
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Sentap Seantero Dunia
Ramai btol sentap skang ni...yg xtau hujung pangkal pon sentap kan...
Kalau nak comment tu please focus on the topic...kajian menunjukkan wanita bila berdebat dlm sesuatu topik, lebih cenderung keluar topic dan menyerang selain dari focus/subjek tersebut...
Contohnya: marahkan pesananan aku pada wanita di luar sana...
Yang disalahkan : kerjaya aku plak tu...adoiiii...xrelevan...apo kono kejo aku dongen topik tu pon aku xtau la....ada ka aku kecam kerjaya org ittiew? lagi sadis....paras rupa...hahahaha....kalau debat dlm parlimen camni....kuang kuang kuang....
Pesanan...bila dah komen kan....baca balik sebelum post tu...tambahan plak kat blog org....
Cukup2 la aktiviti memalukan diri korang sendiri (statement ni bakal sentapkan ramai org, xcaya?pasni berduyun nak komen)...aku sedap gak baca kat sini....aku nak delete pon bleh, tapi xpayah la....
org akan kata ni la pompuan, kalau gaduh tu abis isu luar dalam dia serang....
Terima kasih kepada yg komen dgn adab sekaligus menerangkan ape sebenarnya terjadi...sy hargai...agak terbalik plak...org yg KALAU nak sentap beradab....yg lain pakai nama Anonymous, aku xkenal plak tu, lain la kawan aku tu, aku kenai...adoi.....buat aku senyum sorang2....
Perlu ke aku block blog aku ni? kena discuss dgn bee2 dlu..
agak2 nk delete komen yg dah tertulis tu...delete je...aku buat2 xnampak....
pada pembaca blog...sentap2 jugak..karang sentap punya sentap...strok!!
Kalau nak comment tu please focus on the topic...kajian menunjukkan wanita bila berdebat dlm sesuatu topik, lebih cenderung keluar topic dan menyerang selain dari focus/subjek tersebut...
Contohnya: marahkan pesananan aku pada wanita di luar sana...
Yang disalahkan : kerjaya aku plak tu...adoiiii...xrelevan...apo kono kejo aku dongen topik tu pon aku xtau la....ada ka aku kecam kerjaya org ittiew? lagi sadis....paras rupa...hahahaha....kalau debat dlm parlimen camni....kuang kuang kuang....
Pesanan...bila dah komen kan....baca balik sebelum post tu...tambahan plak kat blog org....
Cukup2 la aktiviti memalukan diri korang sendiri (statement ni bakal sentapkan ramai org, xcaya?pasni berduyun nak komen)...aku sedap gak baca kat sini....aku nak delete pon bleh, tapi xpayah la....
org akan kata ni la pompuan, kalau gaduh tu abis isu luar dalam dia serang....
Terima kasih kepada yg komen dgn adab sekaligus menerangkan ape sebenarnya terjadi...sy hargai...agak terbalik plak...org yg KALAU nak sentap beradab....yg lain pakai nama Anonymous, aku xkenal plak tu, lain la kawan aku tu, aku kenai...adoi.....buat aku senyum sorang2....
Perlu ke aku block blog aku ni? kena discuss dgn bee2 dlu..
agak2 nk delete komen yg dah tertulis tu...delete je...aku buat2 xnampak....
pada pembaca blog...sentap2 jugak..karang sentap punya sentap...strok!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Mengimbau pertungan ku dengan ZULAZMAN KHOLEDIN 750101-02-****
Tiba-tiba aku terasa nak letak gambar pertunangan ku dengan ZULAZMAN BIN KHOLEDIN, IC No: 750101-02-**** beralamat di No 350, Lorong Kenari 2/2A, Taman Kenari 09000 Kulim Kedah sebagai renungan dan kenangan bersama....maklumlah, sesetengah orang tu depa xpernah nak amik tau orang yang depa kenai tu dah kawen ka blom, tunang org ka bukan, pakwe orang ka bukan...jadi....next time org search nama zul dalam internet...dapatlah tengok informasi ni....
terpampang kat situ nama atas kek tu ZUL...kot la ada yg xnampakkan....
lagi gambar hantaran...pertunangan kami adalah hadiah hari jadi untuk bee2 tahun ni...
banyak rintangan yg perlu kita lalui bersama kan bee2... walau ape terjadi hati hney utk bee2...
kasih sayang hney utk bee2...
hney setia tunggu bee2...
inilah insan yang bertuah itu...syukur teramat honey ditemukan dgn bee2...
pejam celik....dah 3 kali raya kita bersama....berkat Ramadhan tarikh pertemuan kita meyakinkan honey, bee2 la orangnya...
biar apa pun rintangan yang hney kena lalui, honey tetap sayangkan bee2...
demi sayang dan cinta honey pada bee2, honey tabahkan hati
kuatkan semangat harungi rintangan....
hanya Tuhan yang tahu kesetiaan honey pada bee2...
kasih sayang honey pada bee2...
honey bersyukur keluarga kita sangat serasi....
baby boy pon dah pandai panggil honey Mak Ngah...
dah kamceng ngan honey...
sempoi la dia....
bee2 ingat tau...honey sentiasa sayang dan rindu bee2...
rindu pada senyuman, celoteh pot pet bee, bau perfume + badan bee2....
paling best usikan bee2 yang kadang2 melampau....
rindu pada adventure kita round penang hari tu....
jalan2 kat KL...
pi Pahang drive....
kelantan...terengganu....
pantai timur kita dah conquer....
pasni kita turun selatan..inshaALLAH....
honey rindu sangat2 kat bee....
honey sayang sangat kat bee...
kat mane pon honey, jauh atau dekat dgn bee2...
hati honey milik bee2...
bee lari la jauh mane pon....
honey setia tunggu...
Orang ketiga....
Angkara orang ketiga...wanita mana yang sanggup mengganggu rumahtangga orang lain sememangnya tak berhati perut atau lebih cantik aku katakan busuk hati..
Kalau pun hatinya pernah dilukai, janganlah lukai hati wanita lain yang cuba sedaya upaya mempertahan hubungannya ke jinjang pelamin...
Bersikap positif...tu yang cuba aku lakukan...mungkin wanita ini tak tahu bahawa bee2 ku ini tunangan orang...memandangkan dia sendiri pernah ditinggalkan, harapnya dia faham dan mengerti keperitan hati seorang wanita dalam percintaan...
Bukan sehari dua aku lahir kat dunia ni untuk mengesan menangkap penafian...
naluri wanita dapat mengesan semua tu...aku rasa dia pun tahu...aku jamin dia juga pernah melalui semua ni...
fahamlah wahai wanita, aku menyayangi jejaka ini sepenuh hati aku...dialah dunia ku...
aku sentiasa berdoa dia jugalah penentu hala tuju aku ke syurga atau neraka di akhirat kelak...
Wahai wanita, seandainya penafian mu itu benar...
apa yang perlu ditakuti....
aku jua wanita yang mendamba kasih seorang lelaki yang juga menagih sayang dariku...
Kau juga pernah begitu, kau pasti faham...
Wahai wanita,
kehadiranmu ketika ini tidak dialu-alukan
janganlah menjadi peruntuh masjid insan lain yang cuba kecapi kebahagiaan...
Sungguhpun harapanmu pernah hancur,
sanggupkah engkau lihat harapan orang lain juga hancur?
Sanggupkah engkau menjadi orang ketiga itu seperti wanita itu yg merampas kekasih kau sebelum ini?
Aku yakin kau boleh baca "coretan hati ku" ini...
walaupun kau block blog kau...
aku tau kau boleh baca blog aku....
Sekian....
P/S: saya anggap apa awk ckp psl jejaka misteri tu dan penafian awk tu benar...
Tuhan tu Esa....Dia Tuhan saya, awak dan tunang saya....
Dia tahu apa yg sy xtau...
Saya faham....blog awak hak awak....tunang sy hak sy....
Awk block blog awak pertahan hak awak....
Tolong jaga hak masing2....
atau
cariklah hak sendiri...
Semoga Tuhan merahmati kita semua....mana la tau....
kot2...awak jadi biras saya.....ehem2....
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Kejayaan Yg Manis
Dari kecil lagi, aku bukanlah seorang yang namanya disebut untuk sebarang anugerah macam pelajar cemerlang, kehadiran penuh, jauh sekali pelajar contoh. Aku x pernah terasa bila kawan2 dapat anugerah2 camtu. Mereka layak terima sbb mereka bekerja keras. Kalau pun mereka x layak, aku percaya dan yakin mesti ada sesuatu istimewa dan lain yg mereka dah lakukan dari aku yang serba biasa ni.
Mungkin secara lahiriah lagi aku ni jenis orang kata xberapa nak pulun. Aku bukanlah seorang yang mempunyai dedikasi yg sangat tinggi. Mungkin kebergantungan aku kpd parents aku buat aku xkisah dlm semua hal.
Masa aku sekolah rendah aku dikelilingi oleh kawan2 yg pandai dan sangat rajin. Walaupun aku x tertinggal jauh dalam kelas, namun harapan menggunung orang tua ku utk aku dpt top 5 selalunya hampa. Masa tu, kalau dapat top 10 pun dah kira beruntung sbb kawan2 aku masa kat Convent tu bukan main lagi rajin, siap tusyen, ko-kurikulum cemerlang..Aku? tusyen jugak...tapi bukan ko-kurikulum..masa tu abah xbagi aku berko-ku sbb dia takut aku xstudy.
Antara kejayaan kecil aku bila aku dipilih utk masuk gymnastic masa darjah 4, cikgu tu pilih sendiri aku. Bangga sangat. Malangnya abah xbagi takut aku cedera dan xbelajar. Satu lagi aku dipilih jugak utk join group koir english skolah. Hanya 5 org je terpilih. Masa tu darjah 6. Abah xbagi juga. Koir skolah tu sampai peringkat negeri, sedihnya aku.
Peringkat sekolah rendah Tahap 2 adalah sangat sesuai utk pembentukkan keyakinan diri seorang kanak2. Dengan insiden2 tadi, keyakinan diri aku xterbentuk sepenuhnya. Namun, sebagai anak aku akur dgn kehendak org tua. Mama selalu ajar aku supaya look on the bright side. At least aku terpilih, bermaksud aku punya bakat.
Habis sekolah rendah aku layak masuk SMK Sultan Badlishah, sekolah yang top di Kulim dan terkenal di Kedah. Sekolah budak2 pandai. Terkejut aku bila abah xbagi aku masuk skolah tu dgn alasan aku xcukup matang utk sekolah yang campur jantina. Patah semangat aku. Namun, pengalaman aku di SMK St Anne's Convent sangat manis. Dilantik sbg pengawas, aku mula kenali bakat pengerusi majlis. Setiap kali giliran aku jadi pengerusi majlis utk perhimpunan mingguan, aku akan lakukan yang terbaik!! Bakat berdebat aku pun timbul, namun x diteruskan masa aku masuk MRSM. Aku jugak pernah menang Song Festival di Convent. Perancangan awal aku, Ainul, Wani dan Ayuni (kalau xsilap) pakat nak masuk sbg 1 kumpulan, tapi bila nama dah diberi, diorang tarik diri. Masa tu xboleh tarik diri sbb kurang penyertaan. Maka, aku lah yang kena nyanyi. lagunya How Do I by Shania Twain. Juara kau! sbb kurang penyertaan, aku bertanding dgn tingkatan 4 dan 5. Kiranya akulah wakil Ting 1, 2 dan 3. Siot je, sib baik menang.
Kejayaan2 kecil yg cukup manis dan bermakna utk aku..dari situ, aku mula yakin dgn diri aku.
Masuk MRSM, keyakinan aku terus merudum ke tahap negatif. Maklumlah, MRSM tempat pelajar2 berbakat dan sangatlah pandai. Aku terletak di golongan sederhana seperti selalu. Antara kejayaan kecil aku masa MRSM yg boleh dikira, English Essay aku antara 3 terbaik dipilih oleh cikgu sbb kreativiti cerita aku mengenai How Music Effected My Life. Aku buat cerita cinta. Dari situ aku tau aku boleh guna kreativiti aku or angan2 aku ke arah menulis essay. Bangga babe! Antara yg pandai2 tu, essay aku dipilih top 3..Masa sekolah menengah aku join ko-k sepuasnya. Semua aku masuk. Biro Kebajikan, PBSM, silat, Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya, Pengakap, kelab komputer, matematik...belasah sume..Memang betul ko-k ni membantu remaja mengembangkan kemahiran, team work n leadership. Satu lagi aku terpilih untuk mewakili sekolah untuk Silat Wiralaga. Pergggghhhh.....ganas seh....tapi batal sbb masa tu cuti sekolah..Sib baik..kalau x, ntah sape2 la aku belasah hari ni sbb terlampau yakin diri....
Masuk matrikulasi, aku dalam golongan yang sederhana-cemerlang, sempadan la kiranya. Pandai sket dari sebelum2nya..Pernah lah jadi setiausaha kelab perpustakaan...amik kau!! terkejut? dari situ aku tau aku xsuka jadi setiausaha...banyak seh surat, laporan kena tulis...meluat....
Masa USM, aku tengah zaman menentang abah aku sbb dia wat rayuan kat USM utk kos matematik lulus. Aku asalnya dpt UPM (Human Resource), mmg plan nak wat betul2 1st year than tukar course matematik 2nd year. Skali abah aku paksa aku masuk USM. 2week in UPM cukup best utk aku, freedom n independant. Aku jauh dari keluarga dan aku yakin aku boleh berdikari. aku siap dah plan n excited nak balik naik bas ekspres. Maklumlah, selalu dekat dgn family, jarang2 dpt naik bas ekspres jauh2...Sekali abah aku paksa, aku tetap akur. masuklah aku USM. Hidup aku kat USM xbest langsung. banyak dugaan, keseorangan xramai kawan 1 course sbb msk lambat kan...ade 1 je kejayaan aku...aku hampir dpt sijil dekan. tu pon hampir je..satu lagi aku dpt A utk bahasa perancis...bonjour...bonjour....bangga babe...
Bila aku dpt msk KPLI...aku azam nak wat yg terbaik. Namun, lahiriah aku yg jenis xbrapa nak pulun tetap kekal..siapa yg xteringin dapat Guru Cemerlang kan? semua teringin. Tapi utk aku teringin tu sekadar teringin je. Effort aku banyak, tapi xsebanyak kwn2 aku yg teringin tu jugak. Effort aku akan banyak bila lecturer nak datang observe waktu praktikum tu. Awal2 tu work hard jugak, tapi letih sgt n fed up. aku pon work smart sket. Tak sangka aku dicalonkan, walaupun teringin, tapi aku rasa org lain lebih layak. Aku dah dapat agak mesti ada desas desus yang akan bercakap2 sbb aku dicalonkan, walhal kwn2 aku yg lain kerja keras tiap2 hari wat alat bantu mengajar n lesson plan.
Pencalonan ni sangat bermakna bagi aku sbb setelah sekian lama, inilah pengiktirafan terbesar dlm hidup aku. Kejayaan yang besar utk aku. Nama aku tidak pernah dikaitkan dengan perkataan cemerlang sebelum ni. XPERNAH langsung. Biasa-biasa saja. Keyakinan aku menjadi lebih utuh. Namun, jauh di sudut hati aku, persoalan layakkah aku sebenarnya utk pencalonan ini sering timbul..
Malu dgn diri sendiri kerana Tuhan tidak membuka aib ku sebaliknya memberikan aku anugerah ini. Bayangkan kalau Tuhan buka aib ku, aku xwat lesson plan masa pensyarah datang observe. Malu besar aku. Alhamdulillah...malu aku dgn Tuhan...malu aku pd diri aku sendiri....malu dgn aibku yang Tuhan telah tutup dr pandangan org lain...
Namun kejayaan ini sebagai pendorong aku teruskan hidup. dengan dugaan besar aku hadapi kala ini, pencalonan inilah semangat utk aku terus kejar impian aku menjadi guru dan insyaAllah isteri dan anak yang solehah.
Kejayaan ini pendorong aku untuk lebih mempercayai diri dan Tuhan....Tuhan anugerahkan kejayaan ini agar iman ku utuh hadapi dugaan yang diturunkanNya pada aku ketika ini....
Mungkin secara lahiriah lagi aku ni jenis orang kata xberapa nak pulun. Aku bukanlah seorang yang mempunyai dedikasi yg sangat tinggi. Mungkin kebergantungan aku kpd parents aku buat aku xkisah dlm semua hal.
Masa aku sekolah rendah aku dikelilingi oleh kawan2 yg pandai dan sangat rajin. Walaupun aku x tertinggal jauh dalam kelas, namun harapan menggunung orang tua ku utk aku dpt top 5 selalunya hampa. Masa tu, kalau dapat top 10 pun dah kira beruntung sbb kawan2 aku masa kat Convent tu bukan main lagi rajin, siap tusyen, ko-kurikulum cemerlang..Aku? tusyen jugak...tapi bukan ko-kurikulum..masa tu abah xbagi aku berko-ku sbb dia takut aku xstudy.
Antara kejayaan kecil aku bila aku dipilih utk masuk gymnastic masa darjah 4, cikgu tu pilih sendiri aku. Bangga sangat. Malangnya abah xbagi takut aku cedera dan xbelajar. Satu lagi aku dipilih jugak utk join group koir english skolah. Hanya 5 org je terpilih. Masa tu darjah 6. Abah xbagi juga. Koir skolah tu sampai peringkat negeri, sedihnya aku.
Peringkat sekolah rendah Tahap 2 adalah sangat sesuai utk pembentukkan keyakinan diri seorang kanak2. Dengan insiden2 tadi, keyakinan diri aku xterbentuk sepenuhnya. Namun, sebagai anak aku akur dgn kehendak org tua. Mama selalu ajar aku supaya look on the bright side. At least aku terpilih, bermaksud aku punya bakat.
Habis sekolah rendah aku layak masuk SMK Sultan Badlishah, sekolah yang top di Kulim dan terkenal di Kedah. Sekolah budak2 pandai. Terkejut aku bila abah xbagi aku masuk skolah tu dgn alasan aku xcukup matang utk sekolah yang campur jantina. Patah semangat aku. Namun, pengalaman aku di SMK St Anne's Convent sangat manis. Dilantik sbg pengawas, aku mula kenali bakat pengerusi majlis. Setiap kali giliran aku jadi pengerusi majlis utk perhimpunan mingguan, aku akan lakukan yang terbaik!! Bakat berdebat aku pun timbul, namun x diteruskan masa aku masuk MRSM. Aku jugak pernah menang Song Festival di Convent. Perancangan awal aku, Ainul, Wani dan Ayuni (kalau xsilap) pakat nak masuk sbg 1 kumpulan, tapi bila nama dah diberi, diorang tarik diri. Masa tu xboleh tarik diri sbb kurang penyertaan. Maka, aku lah yang kena nyanyi. lagunya How Do I by Shania Twain. Juara kau! sbb kurang penyertaan, aku bertanding dgn tingkatan 4 dan 5. Kiranya akulah wakil Ting 1, 2 dan 3. Siot je, sib baik menang.
Kejayaan2 kecil yg cukup manis dan bermakna utk aku..dari situ, aku mula yakin dgn diri aku.
Masuk MRSM, keyakinan aku terus merudum ke tahap negatif. Maklumlah, MRSM tempat pelajar2 berbakat dan sangatlah pandai. Aku terletak di golongan sederhana seperti selalu. Antara kejayaan kecil aku masa MRSM yg boleh dikira, English Essay aku antara 3 terbaik dipilih oleh cikgu sbb kreativiti cerita aku mengenai How Music Effected My Life. Aku buat cerita cinta. Dari situ aku tau aku boleh guna kreativiti aku or angan2 aku ke arah menulis essay. Bangga babe! Antara yg pandai2 tu, essay aku dipilih top 3..Masa sekolah menengah aku join ko-k sepuasnya. Semua aku masuk. Biro Kebajikan, PBSM, silat, Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya, Pengakap, kelab komputer, matematik...belasah sume..Memang betul ko-k ni membantu remaja mengembangkan kemahiran, team work n leadership. Satu lagi aku terpilih untuk mewakili sekolah untuk Silat Wiralaga. Pergggghhhh.....ganas seh....tapi batal sbb masa tu cuti sekolah..Sib baik..kalau x, ntah sape2 la aku belasah hari ni sbb terlampau yakin diri....
Masuk matrikulasi, aku dalam golongan yang sederhana-cemerlang, sempadan la kiranya. Pandai sket dari sebelum2nya..Pernah lah jadi setiausaha kelab perpustakaan...amik kau!! terkejut? dari situ aku tau aku xsuka jadi setiausaha...banyak seh surat, laporan kena tulis...meluat....
Masa USM, aku tengah zaman menentang abah aku sbb dia wat rayuan kat USM utk kos matematik lulus. Aku asalnya dpt UPM (Human Resource), mmg plan nak wat betul2 1st year than tukar course matematik 2nd year. Skali abah aku paksa aku masuk USM. 2week in UPM cukup best utk aku, freedom n independant. Aku jauh dari keluarga dan aku yakin aku boleh berdikari. aku siap dah plan n excited nak balik naik bas ekspres. Maklumlah, selalu dekat dgn family, jarang2 dpt naik bas ekspres jauh2...Sekali abah aku paksa, aku tetap akur. masuklah aku USM. Hidup aku kat USM xbest langsung. banyak dugaan, keseorangan xramai kawan 1 course sbb msk lambat kan...ade 1 je kejayaan aku...aku hampir dpt sijil dekan. tu pon hampir je..satu lagi aku dpt A utk bahasa perancis...bonjour...bonjour....bangga babe...
Bila aku dpt msk KPLI...aku azam nak wat yg terbaik. Namun, lahiriah aku yg jenis xbrapa nak pulun tetap kekal..siapa yg xteringin dapat Guru Cemerlang kan? semua teringin. Tapi utk aku teringin tu sekadar teringin je. Effort aku banyak, tapi xsebanyak kwn2 aku yg teringin tu jugak. Effort aku akan banyak bila lecturer nak datang observe waktu praktikum tu. Awal2 tu work hard jugak, tapi letih sgt n fed up. aku pon work smart sket. Tak sangka aku dicalonkan, walaupun teringin, tapi aku rasa org lain lebih layak. Aku dah dapat agak mesti ada desas desus yang akan bercakap2 sbb aku dicalonkan, walhal kwn2 aku yg lain kerja keras tiap2 hari wat alat bantu mengajar n lesson plan.
Pencalonan ni sangat bermakna bagi aku sbb setelah sekian lama, inilah pengiktirafan terbesar dlm hidup aku. Kejayaan yang besar utk aku. Nama aku tidak pernah dikaitkan dengan perkataan cemerlang sebelum ni. XPERNAH langsung. Biasa-biasa saja. Keyakinan aku menjadi lebih utuh. Namun, jauh di sudut hati aku, persoalan layakkah aku sebenarnya utk pencalonan ini sering timbul..
Malu dgn diri sendiri kerana Tuhan tidak membuka aib ku sebaliknya memberikan aku anugerah ini. Bayangkan kalau Tuhan buka aib ku, aku xwat lesson plan masa pensyarah datang observe. Malu besar aku. Alhamdulillah...malu aku dgn Tuhan...malu aku pd diri aku sendiri....malu dgn aibku yang Tuhan telah tutup dr pandangan org lain...
Namun kejayaan ini sebagai pendorong aku teruskan hidup. dengan dugaan besar aku hadapi kala ini, pencalonan inilah semangat utk aku terus kejar impian aku menjadi guru dan insyaAllah isteri dan anak yang solehah.
Kejayaan ini pendorong aku untuk lebih mempercayai diri dan Tuhan....Tuhan anugerahkan kejayaan ini agar iman ku utuh hadapi dugaan yang diturunkanNya pada aku ketika ini....
Monday, August 31, 2009
Ish...tragedi pakcik Honda City....
Blog ini ditulis dengan penuh rasa kerinduan terhadap bee2 ku itu.almaklumlah, dah jauh kan...bila dekat tu mcm2 rasa menyampah, xkuasa, sakit hati...
mulanya cuti skolah haritu sangat la seronok. dengan persiapan yg perlu kami lakukan untuk majlis akan datang ni, maka aku sangatlah terharu bila bee2 sanggup amik half day leave selama 3 hari. ye la, dia tengah busy bleh plak amik cuti....
hari pertama kami pi survey perkhidmatan perancangan majlis itu. asalnya nak gi tgk perabot, tup2 tukar plak..hoooray...dah puas hati dgn perkhidmatan yg dirancang...pi la berbuka bersama2 di Hotel Sri Malaysia Kepala Batas bertiga mama, bee2 n aku..seronok dan sangat kenyang...ye la dah la perut yg lapar diisi sepenuh2nya, dapat plak berbuka dgn 2 orang insan tersayang..sayang skali, jena ada test mlm tu, xdapat la join...
2nd day, plan nak pi tgk perabot kat Courts Mammoth Sg Petani...plannya aku tunggu di tol Sg Petani Selatan, bee2 akan turun ke sana juga...jumpa kat sana, pastu pkai 1 kreta ja pi,maklumla parking kat situ susah sket....tragedinya bermula semasa aku menunggu tu la....jeng jeng jeng
disabitkan xde parking aku just parking kat tepi jln msk...aiseh...mana kekasih hatiku ni...dgn panasnya...adoiii, sib baik air cond kreta aku ni mantap! belilah MYVI..heheheh...ok2....
skali ade sebuah honda city park sebelah kereta aku, aku just tgk je la...1org pakcik didalamnya...nama pun pakcik, xde la aku suspect pape kan...pakcik...sebaya dgn mama aku je...
dia buat gaya "xde parking kan?" kat aku..aku just angguk dan senyum tanda hormat dan sopan, jauh skali menggoda...sebagai rakyat malaysia yg bagus, aku tunjuk la kat dia ada space kosong sblah lagi kreta aku...dia tunjuk syarat "x muat"...ok la...lantak la kan kat dia...aku pon wat dek sambil layan lagu di radio (aceh...teringat lagu lama hanyaaaaaa di radiooooooo)...
pastu pakcik tu turunkan tingkap kreta dia n tanya aku...yg aku dpt tangkap/paham "....mana?"
serius...aku ingat dia nak tanya arah atau jalan...aku pun ingat nak jadi rakyat malaysia yg prihatin ni..turunkan tingkap...jeng jeng jeng
di sini la bermulanya tragedi yg haiyooooo xmau lalui lagi...geli.... skali dia tanya daaaa "adik ni asal mana? dari mana? watpe kat cni? umah katne?" pelikkan? aku pon mula mengurangkan pahala posa aku dengan kelentong pakcik tu...dlm hati dah nekad, kalau dia minta no tepon, no way aku nak bagi nak kelentong xde henpon...alang2 kelentong...kelentong abis2...
TIBA-TIBA tuttttt...tuttttt...henpon aku plak bunyi...adoi...time ni la bee2 nak tepon pon...sah la dia nampak henpon aku....nak x nak, aku pon jawabla...bee2 kata nak sampai dah...
da nampak kereta dia, aku minta la dia berenti jap situ, at least pakcik tu segan la kan...dia TAK MAU....adoiiiiiiiiiii....
aku pon masuk gear D..start jalan...pastu...spt yg dijangka....pakcik tu minta no henpon aku!!!! aku kate "xpe la pakcik, sy kena pergi ni" dia nak jugak nak jugak....aku pon malas nk layan..aku kelentong lagi no henpon....hahahahaha....memang kurang pahala posa aku....
di situ la bermulanya perang suam2 kuku dgn bee2...sebab kes tu la aku pi Courts Mammoth sorang2...sambil tgk perabot situ sempat la wat drama air mata berguguran di pipi...dek sbb xde mood, aku pon balik masak...masa masak tu pon sempat gak wat adegan cinderella ittiew..
tu la bee2....selalu ngusik honey ada pompuan ngorat la, gatal2 tgk pompuan lain, pmpuan lain cantik lagi la....haaaa....skali jadi depan mata....hehe
hney setia tau...nak jadi isteri solehah tau...
p/s : tu la ngacau hney lagi....kan dah kena batang hidung...huhuhu
***honey cayang bee2 tau...
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
My Crave postponed to other important matters
SAMSUNG JET S8300
SONY ERICSSON C905 (Color:tender rose)
Whoaaa...so sad loh...i have to give up my crave for other things that matter right now. Kinda sad huh?
I was dreaming to use Sony Ericsson Satio which will be in Malaysia soon (I guess). Since the price surely high and maybe RM 2K ++, so I change my taste loh...either Samsung Jet S8300 or Sony Ericsson C905.
Ok2...lets see...
Both also have 8 megapixel cam (wow wheee...click! click! here & there)
S8300 is touch screen, C905 isn't.
S8300 has a very good security code for like every function, so people can't simply2 read my text or pictures/videos.
C905 is cybershot. Everybody knows how good is cybershot camera. Further more, it's SONY man! Experts in cameras!
1 more advantage is that C905 plays awesome music (sound). All agree that SONY ERICSSON phone really have good sound right.
I love the slicky and the elegantness of S8300, with the touch screen, security code, sophisticated menu that u can drag it in the middle. It's a nice phone. I admit that I never like a Samsung phone before, but this one caught my eyes and taste.
I have been loyal to Sony Ericsson and Sony for quite sometimes. I believe SONY products are good, I used to have Cybershot camera, 3 Sony Ericsson handphones. So, I know the quality. Thanks to the idiot robber, I lost my Cybershot. My Sony Ericsson fell down in school jamban. Adoii...still angry at myself for being careless.
I need a handphone that can make calls, and a good camera. 3G, internet are my secondary.
52% of my heart is for C905. You see, I can't make up my mind. How aaah?
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The Pupils - My Joy
Today I taught Year 4A3 about calendar. I gave each of them 2009 calendar and as usual I would asked them questions just to warm up the teaching and learning(T&L) session. Questioning method really work for my T&L. The questions were mostly like this:
- What can you get from calendar? day, date, month, year, holidays, events(birthday, National day, etc)
- What you use calendar for? look at event, puasa, raya...and the list they gave went on and on... :) good response
- What can you see in calendar?numbers, weeks, calendar cina(this one funny,but very good answer actually because he's alert about small2 things)
Usually, pupils would answer according to their previous knowledge and experience. This is important because pupils need to be shown the link between the lesson and the purpose of it clearly. So, I close the set induction with a clear statement of "Today, we will use our kowledge about calendar to take note about events and activity around us".
The first task the pupils have to do is to mark their birthday. From the list of birthdays, I made an analysis of the month of pupils' birthdays. Interestingly, the highest count of birthdays is in March 1999. Then it happened. I was touched by the pupils' questions. They were concern about me too!
"Teacher, bila birthday teacher? teacher tanya kita, teacher x kabo pon birthday teacher."
I answered, shyly "7 August"
"Hah!!!! Teacher, esok la ye? yeay....teacher punya birthday esok!!!!"
The class went on after several time I asked them to settle down. They were so excited.
The class ended 10:15 am. It was recess time. So, I sat down in the class just to have the chance to chat with them. Lately I love to spend my time chatting with the pupils. It's interesting to learn what's going on in their head and lives. What they know about certain issues and comments. No wonder Aznil Hj Nawawi doesn't mind talking to children. They are such wonderful creatures, innocent and curious...
The first question was asked by the class monitor, Asyraf Hanapiah, "Teacher, when is Pn N is going to replace you again?" I was a bit down when he asked that. Wanting to know their responses about my class, I dared myself to ask "Why Asyraf? Are you bored with my lesson?"
Then, he answered "Pn N ngajor xsedap la teacher." No doubt, it was the emotions of relief and happy mixed together in me. Curiously I asked, "Ape yg xsedapnye?" Addressing the questions to all the pupils gathered around me.
"Ye(dia) garang sangat la teacher" Okieeeeee...there's go one secrect out...
"Nape awak kate dia garang? Awak semua nakal sangat kot, tu yg dia garang?" fishing answers and secrets more from the pupils.
"Suara ye kuat", "Ye suke marah2" Hah! I'm like that too. Habis la. They are going to hate me.
Seeking affirmation "Suara teacher pon kuat, teacher marah jugak...teacher x garang?"
"Tak, teacher xgarang. Suara teacher xpower mcm Pn N..." Not satisfied, they must be hiding something.
"Ape yg bezanya?"
"Ye suka pukul" There you go. The bean has spilled out.
Pn N didn't seem the kind of person would do that. She always seen as the person who is really concern about the pupils and would always remind me to be sympathy towards the pupils. Now, I know your secret Pn N and you can't brag some more about how good you are in class control.
Pupils are afraid to you and they are quiet because of that, not because of respect.
The chat continued with more questions from the pupils asking what I want for my birthday. They wanted to collect money to buy my birthday presents. Deeply touched by the pupils effort, I said, "Teacher xnak ape2, teacher nak awak semua belajar rajin2 dan cuba dapat B dalam matematik untuk test akan datang."
I don't expect too much from these pupils. My target is realistic, the pupils majority got C and D for the latest examination. Thus, I set a realistic target for them.
They stood there quietly and one usually mischievious pupil said "Tu la yg selalu cikgu2 nak kan teacher? tapi teacher last day kat sini sebelum exam, camne kite(saya) nak bagi kat teacher"
Tears almost fell from my eyes hearing these words from that boy. I said "Teacher ade ke xde, awak kena dpt B tau...especially you Afiq".
These are one of the joy of my life. I never thought of saying this before, but now I say it aloud
MY PUPILS, MY JOY
To all teachers out there, they are our joy. If you do not feel like this, quit your job and give to others with the spirit of teaching and want to be a good teacher.
To all KPLI, DPLI, PISMP, KDC, and all teaching courses students,
DO NOT EVER ENTER THIS FIELD JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE ANY CHOICE/WORK.
DO IT BECAUSE OF LOVE, EMPATHY AND CARE.
LOVE TEACHING,
LOVE THE PUPILS,
YOU WILL LEARN TO LOVE LIFE AND LIVE LIFE.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Give your pupil a chance
This happened last week. I name the pupil as M. M is a very talkative, hyperactive and mischievous pupils in class. He seemed to be uncomfortable of being comfortable. Meaning, he could not sit quietly when everybody else sits quietly and happily doing their worksheet. He might be walking, talking, disturbing, suddenly screaming in class in order I believe to get attention. From who? Peers, me, or just being silly.. I simply don't know.
Once I asked him to stand at the back of the class, which I believe standing punishment will never benefit the pupil or efficient for them. Since I was kinda pissed off, I ordered him to stand at the back of the class to give me time to think the best psychological punishment for this brat!!!
I thought he maybe the hyperactive pupil in class. Thus, I asked him to be my assistant of the day just to keep him busy and stop disturbing other pupils. He happily put up the teaching aids, help me write down correct answer on the white board, clean the white board, distributes worksheet, and so on. He cheerfully made himself busy with the chores given. The satisfaction on this child glowing face really soften my heart and anger.
Til the end of the lesson, his behaviour impressed me. Wow, this really work...so people, do not give inlogical or inefficient punishment to children. Give them something they can learn from in form of responsibility, team work, moral values and you know others.....
Sentence of the day from M....Teacher, lain kali teacher panggil saya jadi assistant saya lagi ye....
My GOD!!!!! Sejuk sgt hati ni..... (keibuan tak? OMGoddddddd!)
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Bila effort anda dibalas kosong
Hari yg sedih. Sangat dan amatlah sedih bila effort yg anda lakukan dibalas dengan xde ape...
bukan balasan yg nak2 sangat...tapi cukup kalau org itu lakukan yang sama, effort yg sama...
tp org ni berbeza2, mungkin objektif antara aku dan org itu berbeza....
Sedih....
Rasa nak nangis plak luahkan perasaan dalam blog gini....
Dengarlah doniaaaa......aku sedih.....sedih sangat2...hidup ini xlama, bila aku buat sesuatu atau nakkan sesuatu...I'll work for it....
Friday, July 3, 2009
Frustration....help me...
It has been two weeks of practicum. It has been a fun journey despite of the late night sleep and adorable pupils trying to get your attention in class.
BUT..there's the BIG BUT... I still can't stand the last class I'm given..worse....my lecturer is coming and he really wanted to see me handle this class...
I said, "Sir, please not that class. I enter once a week only. Why don't you come to see my other class (the third class)?"
He simply refused. God! Help me...give me some strength and best way to tackle this children.
He added, "If you can handle this class, you pass with excellent, if not I give you fail."
I felt that my heart dropped to the floor...kelepuunggg.....
Let's see what have I done to them...
I played video clips about TIME... they didn't understand at all but still watch the video quietly...
Once I taught them about AM and PM... they started to have chit chat, play with their friends, ajuk cakap aku.....perghhhhh...menyirap....sabar sabar sabar...
Then, for the development I divided them into groups....quite ok, although there were pupils playing and gochoh (fighting & kicking) with each other....during the simulation, hmmmm they were quiet and responding, walaupun jawapan mereka kebanyakannya salah...
Second class....
My teaching was more like story telling or discussion... I gather them to sit in front of the class (all 15 of them) and started to tell stories about time and how to tell time...amazingly, they were all focus and can sit quietly...
when i asked them to go back to their place and gave worksheet to each of them....voala....they all started running here and there....
I asked them to do the homework..but then....you know already...they just couldn't be bothered...
Then...... I SHOUT....hoho...yes, shout.... they were stunned and sit quietly... I cannot do this often, it's not professional..... and against my principal of "STRICT but NOT MEAN"....
Each time I went out, I felt a big frustration in my heart. I believe everybody deserves to learn, educate, and taste success in life. I believe this pupils deserve at least a litle success to make them motivated to move on in life.
I learnt about this pupils background, they came from very problematic family with drug addict father and lunatic mother, divorced parents, poor and so much of factors that cause them became like that.
My sympathy to them was undescribable...I know.. these children were born equal with others....their brains are equally good as others...but...what make their brains slow and not like others? I'm here to solve that as a teacher...at least, they need to learn something a little a day...
My prayers that God gives me strength to help these children and avoid any negative vibes in me... Amin....
Please pray for me and these kids...
Friday, June 26, 2009
Stickers for my pupils.
Went to attach CANON CISS at Mydin Mall. It took us more than 1 hour waiting for that fellow terhegeh2 follow instruction (manual)...if like that I can do it my own. I thought he was the expert.
The reason I want this printer to be working and able to print colour is because I want to print smileys like these for my pupils.
The purpose is to motivate them to participate in activities and answering questions. Each time they answer they will get a sticker and stick on the board I made for them.
To make things easier, I use sticker paper and print these smileys on it. It's so funnnnnn! Hopefully my pupils think it that way too....
Jolly..jolly day...
I love teaching, seriously. The most thing that I love is class discipline. It's very satisfying when the pupils are well-mannered and in control.
What did I do during the first class?
I came in and introduce myself.
I put on a very serious face.
I stared into each pupils' eyes.
I spoke loudly and clearly about the do's and donts.
I set a rule: LL (double L) means: when I talk/teach in front the pupils have to LOOK and LISTEN. No writting or speaking.
Any question raise up your right hand and put your left index finger near your mouth. (because they like "Teacher, teacher, teacher,teacher...."
I know that it sounds very cruel towards these kids. But, it works in one condition.
THE CONDITION: MOTIVATION TOWARDS RESPONSE
1. If anyone volunteer to answer and get the answer correct, the class need to do the "CLEVER CLAP": Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Soooooooo clever!(Pointing to the pupil)
2. If anyone volunteer to answer and get the answer wrong, the class need to support/motivate him by doing TRY CLAP: Clap! Clap! Try try again.(Pointing to the pupil)
I can be very strict in class and shout too, but I try my best not to forget to say "THANK YOU [PUPILS NAME]", "VERY GOOD", "IT'S OK, TRY AGAIN", and give a smiley for the person.
A smiley?
Yesss, I forgot to tell you that I divided the class into 5 groups, each groups is named after 5 famous university: UM, USM, UKM, UPM and UTM.
I put up the names on the board and each time the pupil can answer correctly, they get a smiley beside their names.
At the end of my 12 weeks practicum, I will reward the winner with a special present.
Well, they seemed to be thrilled with this system and when I asked them " Which university do you want to go?" They'd say the name of university of their group. The purpose is to instill a vision in these kids that "I want to go to university".
I'm lucky that until now, the 4A3 class is well-discipline and mannered. Alhamdulillah.....
Monday, June 22, 2009
Horror begins tomorrow
It's a very demotivating day of my teaching life!!!
I was given Year 4 class for Math and Year 3 for English. Quite easy right? So as you thought.
It's a teacher's worst nightmare if he/she's given the last class,so does teachers here. As a trainee I have this impression of if the senior teachers can't do it, how can I do it? I'm just a trainee.
Yesterday, was not so bad when I knew I'm going to teach 3rd class and 6th class (last class). It wasn't that horrified. Since today is my 2nd day here, the teachers were more friendlier and they would surely ask me "Dapat tahun berapa?". This question follows "Kelas mana?"
When I said "4A3 dan 4A6". Their face reactions really changed man!! Obviously!! I asked "Kenapa Cikgu?"
These are the responses I received:
"Beratnya. 4A3 tu bukannya senang nak ajar, slow jugak. 4A6 tu lagi la, xde cikgu2 lama yg berani ambil kelas tu"
"You're dead, girl"
"Aiyoo...why your jadual like this...kesian you."
"Wat gapo amik kelah gini, payoh ngajo budok kelah ni. Ye malah dang xmau blajo. Kadang2 cikgu lame masuk pong ye wat dek je."
"Awok masuk truh wat bekeng. Jangang bagi muka ke ye. Ye naik kepale. Wat seriuh blake"
Initially, I recieved the comments positively. But when almost all the teachers commented negatively at this class, I felt....demotivated, scared....wouldn't you?
Then I send an SMS to my dearest lecturer Pn Mas, just to tell someone that might understand my situation. Met her this evening. She gave me some tips to overcome the negative situation.
Although I am calmer now, but deep inside I still have this negative vibes. Dear God, please help me becoming a great teacher. Do pray for me ya frens....
Sunday, June 21, 2009
1st Day at School (Teacher Version)
Today's my first day at school as a teacher. Posted there with my dear friend Haida, we went to school at 6.50am. We're staying in Gong Badak, it took us 20minutes to reach our school, SK Pusat Chabang Tiga. Reaching the school, we were amazed to see beautiful man made waterfall in front of the school office. Walking around the school, we noticed that this school is very big and well taken care off.
Consists of 2 Bilik Guru, 8 buildings, 1005 students, 31 classes, 63 teachers...
Met with the Penolong Kanan 1 after that and we were briefed about the school rules etc. He gave us relief class (classes which the subject teacher on leave or MC).
Since our relief class started at 12.15pm, we ate our breakfast and met the mentor teacher. Went to the teaching aids room and library to see any resources we can use for teaching.
Then, sembang2 with Kak Sah about students discipline and class management.
So...when we went to our relief class....that's when the story began...
We stepped into the class. No salam given, the class was such in a chaos. Haida tried to get the pupils attention, but their voices much louder than us. I took a deep breath, with all the air in the lung gush out at once I ask for the class monitor " When teacher come in, what should you do?". The class was startled for a moment and the class monitor gave salam and they recite the doa.
With a stern, loud and clear I ask them to keep all the books on the table. Since it was a relief class, we did not plan to teach anything. So we did some test on past topics.
Amazingly, the pupils obey every order, listen when I gave explanation, and response very well to our teaching. Now I know, the theory about 1st day at school really works.
The theory of 1st lesson/1st day at school.
Be very stern, make a believable strict face, tell the dislikes and likes clearly, set all the rules very well.
I'm quite reliefed that the pupils really believe at my strictness. Hehehe....that's a lesson for me today....
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Why I want to be a teacher?
1. I love teaching (wahhhh! so standard answer for KPLI interview!!!)
Hey, I want to be a teacher and even applied for Degree + Edu, tapi xdapat sob sob sob...
It was my truly and long lasting ambition compares to Astrologist (Abah's influence okay), Labour Law Consultant (thanks to my abah, a big influence!), HR Manager (Abah also), Architect(that time abah was so in to build house) and even Doctor(I just love people)!!
2. I idolise my teachers (from my heart, thank you so much teacher!!)
My primary and secondary schooling was heaven(dont wana use hell) fun! Still remember my standard 1 teacher Pn Salmah, very nice,soft and caring lady. She was I think 50+ that time. She likes to wear kebaya nyonya to school. I wish if she still alive, I wana meet her. Standard 1 - Form 3 (1991-1999), my school SRK / SMK St Anne's Convent, Kulim Kedah.
Secondary teachers: Pn Zaitun (sains), Pn Romlah (math), Pn Pauziah (BM)....mis you all. I wana meet them...these teachers called me Anak Mat Ali (my Abah the very peramah type, all teacher knew him).
3. I'm good in teaching...so as I believe (Waaaaa...ayat angkat diri)
I can stand people xpaham for up to 5 times. Maksudnya, ajar sekali xfaham, kali kedua oso xfaham, sampai la kali ke-5 i still ajar baik2 dengan approach yg berbeza..masuk ke 6, suara dah naik, dan tegas la, ke 7....pergi rehat dulu, sbb aku nak cool down!! ;) karang ade yg kena smack down bagi darah tu jalan ke otak sket....
4. I love people...Rather work with people than things/machines/those things cannot talk/move/emotionless
Kalau dalam sehari aku tak bersosial maka buang tebiat la aku ari tu. pendek kata bukan aku la. manusia ni banyak betul kerenahnya dan paling best aku suka layan dan tengok kerenah2 ni. secara xlangsung aku boleh kaji psikologi dan latar belakang menyebabkan kerenah dia gitu...
5. Aku tegas...ciri2 sorang guru...hehehe
Aku xgarang sbb aku xjerit2 pada orang n sedaya upaya elak dari menggunakan bahasa kasar dan aku direct orangnya. agak2 xpuas hati, aku cakap depan dan bukan kutuk blakang2. Walaupun aku ada gak kutuk blakang, lebih senang aku suarakan je. Sbb kutuk belakang ni boleh menyebabkan aku sampai maki2...(cikgu kan? kena la sopan santun berbudi pekerti....) so...kira perubahan aku utk tahun ni...boleh ke? kita tengok sama2 k...
P/S: the list can go on...so aku akan sambung bila2 aku free.....
Hey, I want to be a teacher and even applied for Degree + Edu, tapi xdapat sob sob sob...
It was my truly and long lasting ambition compares to Astrologist (Abah's influence okay), Labour Law Consultant (thanks to my abah, a big influence!), HR Manager (Abah also), Architect(that time abah was so in to build house) and even Doctor(I just love people)!!
2. I idolise my teachers (from my heart, thank you so much teacher!!)
My primary and secondary schooling was heaven(dont wana use hell) fun! Still remember my standard 1 teacher Pn Salmah, very nice,soft and caring lady. She was I think 50+ that time. She likes to wear kebaya nyonya to school. I wish if she still alive, I wana meet her. Standard 1 - Form 3 (1991-1999), my school SRK / SMK St Anne's Convent, Kulim Kedah.
Secondary teachers: Pn Zaitun (sains), Pn Romlah (math), Pn Pauziah (BM)....mis you all. I wana meet them...these teachers called me Anak Mat Ali (my Abah the very peramah type, all teacher knew him).
3. I'm good in teaching...so as I believe (Waaaaa...ayat angkat diri)
I can stand people xpaham for up to 5 times. Maksudnya, ajar sekali xfaham, kali kedua oso xfaham, sampai la kali ke-5 i still ajar baik2 dengan approach yg berbeza..masuk ke 6, suara dah naik, dan tegas la, ke 7....pergi rehat dulu, sbb aku nak cool down!! ;) karang ade yg kena smack down bagi darah tu jalan ke otak sket....
4. I love people...Rather work with people than things/machines/those things cannot talk/move/emotionless
Kalau dalam sehari aku tak bersosial maka buang tebiat la aku ari tu. pendek kata bukan aku la. manusia ni banyak betul kerenahnya dan paling best aku suka layan dan tengok kerenah2 ni. secara xlangsung aku boleh kaji psikologi dan latar belakang menyebabkan kerenah dia gitu...
5. Aku tegas...ciri2 sorang guru...hehehe
Aku xgarang sbb aku xjerit2 pada orang n sedaya upaya elak dari menggunakan bahasa kasar dan aku direct orangnya. agak2 xpuas hati, aku cakap depan dan bukan kutuk blakang2. Walaupun aku ada gak kutuk blakang, lebih senang aku suarakan je. Sbb kutuk belakang ni boleh menyebabkan aku sampai maki2...(cikgu kan? kena la sopan santun berbudi pekerti....) so...kira perubahan aku utk tahun ni...boleh ke? kita tengok sama2 k...
P/S: the list can go on...so aku akan sambung bila2 aku free.....
Memoir of a teacher-2-B
I enrolled myself as a student of Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Ijazah at one of the Institut Pendidikan Guru Malaysia (previously known as Maktab Perguruan) in East Coast. First time I ever have to be apart from my family doesn't bother me so much compared to the different food, social style and insecurity here. Not so much big of a deal, but it do affect me and motivation to be a teacher overcomes all the challenges.
The first week of orientation was very interesting with the senior, who eventually younger than us, treat us some sort of shit. I was blinded at first with the shitty hospitality, not that I ask for appreciation, but at least mutual respect. They kept repeating that the KPLI students were snobbish because we have degree and they don't. Psycho us that we were here because we don't have other jobs. Hello....we choose to be here because we want to be a teacher, we left our good pays and respected jobs to be a teacher. Plus other tormenting, sarcastic words!!! I was getting fed up of those youngsters who just got a JPP title and gila kuasa like that.
The week went on with curses and complains from all of the KPLI students. Since most of us are 25 years old above, we just buat x layan je. Until the final night, our Persembahan Kebudayaan night finished and the JPP starts to pressure us AGAIN! They were shouting at us, and there was one brad(1 of the AJK JPP) who kept interupting with stupid and sarcastic words! The AJK started to shout at themselves! At last they blamed the penghulu and penghuluwati of KPLI and threatened to expel them. Whoa..that was too much! Who you think you are to expel people like that?!!!! You are not the Hal Ehwal Pelajar okay!
The night went on with the Penghulu hug and shake hand with all KPLI students. There were two students who were to be expeled too because they did not hand over their handphones (by the way, we were forced to hand over our handphone to HEP during orientation week). The air was filled with sadness and anger, anger to those bastards.
In the midst of tense air, suddenly...jeng jeng jeng...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! Hampeh...siot...bengong...itulah ayat2 yang terkeluar dari mulut2 bakal cikgu ni(sungguh tidak beretika, jgn contohi okay)...rupanya, they all planned that since early that week...hampeh la korang...btol2 hampeh....
Actually they are very nice people...AJK Disiplin yang sangat tegas melampau actually nice kids(eventhough you all seniors here, we are all older la :) ) , they are nice people and they treat us just like their kakak and abang...after the orientation we all are like friends....it's a happy ending story..but it's a real story.....
P/S: Aku still xpuas hati dengan kejutan korang..geram tau sbb korang telah membuatkan darah aku mendidih gila....sikit lagi ade je yg kena lempang time tu (ganaznye aku!!)...haha...tapi ok je...nak gelak kat diri sendiri pon ade gak....hahahahaha
The first week of orientation was very interesting with the senior, who eventually younger than us, treat us some sort of shit. I was blinded at first with the shitty hospitality, not that I ask for appreciation, but at least mutual respect. They kept repeating that the KPLI students were snobbish because we have degree and they don't. Psycho us that we were here because we don't have other jobs. Hello....we choose to be here because we want to be a teacher, we left our good pays and respected jobs to be a teacher. Plus other tormenting, sarcastic words!!! I was getting fed up of those youngsters who just got a JPP title and gila kuasa like that.
The week went on with curses and complains from all of the KPLI students. Since most of us are 25 years old above, we just buat x layan je. Until the final night, our Persembahan Kebudayaan night finished and the JPP starts to pressure us AGAIN! They were shouting at us, and there was one brad(1 of the AJK JPP) who kept interupting with stupid and sarcastic words! The AJK started to shout at themselves! At last they blamed the penghulu and penghuluwati of KPLI and threatened to expel them. Whoa..that was too much! Who you think you are to expel people like that?!!!! You are not the Hal Ehwal Pelajar okay!
The night went on with the Penghulu hug and shake hand with all KPLI students. There were two students who were to be expeled too because they did not hand over their handphones (by the way, we were forced to hand over our handphone to HEP during orientation week). The air was filled with sadness and anger, anger to those bastards.
In the midst of tense air, suddenly...jeng jeng jeng...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! Hampeh...siot...bengong...itulah ayat2 yang terkeluar dari mulut2 bakal cikgu ni(sungguh tidak beretika, jgn contohi okay)...rupanya, they all planned that since early that week...hampeh la korang...btol2 hampeh....
Actually they are very nice people...AJK Disiplin yang sangat tegas melampau actually nice kids(eventhough you all seniors here, we are all older la :) ) , they are nice people and they treat us just like their kakak and abang...after the orientation we all are like friends....it's a happy ending story..but it's a real story.....
P/S: Aku still xpuas hati dengan kejutan korang..geram tau sbb korang telah membuatkan darah aku mendidih gila....sikit lagi ade je yg kena lempang time tu (ganaznye aku!!)...haha...tapi ok je...nak gelak kat diri sendiri pon ade gak....hahahahaha
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